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2011-06-08T19:18:00.001-07:00

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SOUPER you Winner!!

2010-01-26T07:57:00.000-08:00

Congratulation to comment Number 15....

Pickled Pixie!

You go girl!

Send me an E-mail with your address so you can get your prize!

Thank you to everyone who entered :)

Moving!

2010-01-26T07:51:00.000-08:00

This weekend we are *finally* moving into our townhouse! I am super excited to finally be in our own place again. I appreciate my parents letting us stay here while we figured everything out after my Hubs got out of the Navy.
It's time though. Time to be on our own. Be our own family!
With all that said, posting will be few and far between for a few weeks. I am going to continue my weightloss journey, so please keep checking to see any new posts. I am excited because the apartment complex has a weight room and my husband is getting me a membership at the school gym.
So now I can actually work out at a gym instead of just with Videos! I am super excited.

I got a Job...sort of.

2010-01-22T12:42:00.000-08:00

Monday night I was invited to go to a Mary Kay meeting. I met a great group of Ladies and decided to give it a try. I mean, why not? For $100 dollars plus tax & Shipping you get $300 dollars worth of product and all the tools you need to start a Business. I have been wanting to start something at home to kind of help pay some of the bills. After all, I am a former workaholic turned stay at home Mom. I didn't want to leave home, or put my Son in Daycare so it didn't leave me many options. I don't have a college Degree so a lot of the jobs you can do at home wouldn't even consider me. Not to mention Phone sex operator, or Midnight Psychic aren't really my cup of tea.
Besides, I love people and make up so this gives me an opportunity to do 2 things I love.

So, why not a little Shameless promoting? I have to submit my first order by the end of the month. So my Director told me about a 24-24-24 deal.
I need 24 people to purchase $24 dollars worth of product in 24 hours..but really I just need it by the end of the month. There are several $10 dollar items to choose from.
You can purchase anything VIA the website. You can purchase anything VIA Paypal. When you order I automatically get a message, I will e-mail you with your total and my paypal information. It gets shipped to me and then I can ship it to you.
Shipping to me would be charged, but shipping (Anywhere in the US) to you from me would be free.
You can Visit my website by clicking on this pretty icon

I want to be a loser!

2010-01-18T06:18:00.000-08:00

The Biggest Loser that is!

At church yesterday a bunch of people got together and weighed in. I was really stoked because I haven't stepped on a scale since right after the Holiday and I didn't tell anyone how much I weighed but mentioned I had gained about 4lbs.

So I am all excited, right. I get in the room where the scale was and I feel all this anxiety like I usually do right before I step on a scale because I'm afraid it will read like "215" lbs or some crazy number that throws me WAY back.
I kick of my boots and step on. I look down and what do I see?

191.5lbs!!

That little scale doesn't know it, but at that moment it became my Best of best Friends!

"B", the guy taking my weight says, "I wont look if you don't want me to. You can even write it down if you want."
I smiled and said, "Oh No! I can tell you because for me this is GOOD!"
I can't remember when I weighed this much. I know it may still seem a lot to you skinny people who are rolling your eyes saying, "I would never eat again if I weighed that, you heffer!"

But this is a break through for me, and let me tell you..I am stoked!

These photos aren't that great because I (obviously) took them with my iPhone myself, but here ya go..

This is just the motivational boost I need, and with a $10 dollar price tag on being a part of Biggest loser and about 20 people being involved..you could say I am hoping at the end of 10 weeks I get some cash!

I added a progress ticker at the top of my page. It used to be at the bottom but now I am so excited I added it to the top.

Sunday Citar- Humor :)

2010-01-17T10:46:00.000-08:00

"Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
~Author Unknown

The fight to be Perfect

2010-01-16T20:58:00.000-08:00

Someone I am friends with posted this on her wall on Facebook. I looked at the photo and didn't recognize the woman on the cover until I saw the name. This is Heidi Montag.

Now, I must admit I watched "The Hills" and noticed when she had her nose and lips done. I couldn't believe she wanted to alter her appearance because she is absolutely beautiful.
I want to be thin. I want people to see me as beautiful. But honestly, Plastic surgery hasn't even been something to think about. She doesn't even look like herself.
Why is it that people want so badly to be perfect they are willing to change everything about themselves?
I feel sorry for people who hate the way they look so much they go to such extreme measures.
What kind of message does this send to woman and young girls? A bad one. This literally sickens me. She doesn't even look good anymore.

What do you think of Heidi's Plastic Surgery transformation?

Today is my Special Day!

2010-01-15T06:44:00.000-08:00

Hello and Welcome to all stopping by my blog VIA Speaking from the Crib! I am so thrilled to be chosen as a top blog :) After all, we all need a little inspiration to lose some weight.
Thank you for stopping by :) Grab a button on your way out!

If you're one of my regular readers, and want to read my Guest post click HERE

I honestly am fat. But I'm not "just" fat. I recently became a Mom. I didn't get fat because I am a Mom. No, I can assure you I was over weight before I got pregnant. It's been a life long struggle. My love for food has over come my love to be able to fit in one of those Tiny seats at Theme parks on my Favorite roller coaster rides. I can fit, sort of. It's almost like being squeezed into a size 14 jeans when you're a size 20. You keep jumping up and down hoping they will slide over your hips..but..it never happens. You throw yourself on your bed, Defeated. Breathing heavy and sweaty from the work out. That's how the Roller coaster attendants feel. I am totally kidding..sort of.

Are you a fat mom? Just fat? I tell you, there is light at the end of the tunnel! So far I have lost 14lbs. When I make it to 20lbs I plan to buy myself something nice. Maybe a skirt to wear to church or something. It's not easy. I believe with all my heart I have an evil love affair with Food. To this day it still calls me. I have been doing this since October. I reluctantly got thrown from the Wagon and had to chase it down the road to get back on. I got there defeated, yet again. And it took me awhile to catch my breath and start back up again.
Little goals are Key to acheive the big one.

Here are a few posts I would like to share with you:

The Beginning (Photos of myself before any sort of weight loss)
My First Weigh in (Lookin a little better)
My Muffin top is better than yours!

In Honor of my SOUPER special day, I am going to entice you with a Yummy giveaway you cannot refuse.

Progresso soups are delicious! And now they have low calorie soups that are 100 Calories or less per serving.
Sometimes the Calories are so low you can eat the whole can, and honestly they taste so Good you will almost always want to. So today I am giving away this package Provided by Progresso!

2 cans of Progresso Light Soup,

a Jump rope (that counts your jumps, it's pretty awesome!)

and a Soup cup that holds a whole can of soup!

( free soup, gift pack, information, and giveaway were provided by Progresso )

These soups are a delicious way to stay on track. With 100 calories or less per serving, it's a healthy lunch or dinner that satisfies you. The Variety is amazing. While you're entering my contest, check out Progresso's SOUPER You Contest.
You could win a New York Makeover!

To Enter to win this Fabulous gift pack provided by Progresso all you have to do is (please post all entries in a seperate comment because I am greedy for comments like that ;) ) :

Leave me a comment about how much you want this gift pack (1 Entry)

Be a follower of Fat Mom Blog (1 Entry)

Blog about my Giveaway (3 Entries)

Add my Button to your Blog roll (1 Entry)

Tweet about my Blog (1 Entry)

Winner will be chosen by Random.org

Contest ends January 21st!

What happened to the Recipes?

2010-01-14T06:56:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning Hungry like I do most days since I stop eating around 6 PM. I ate Crispix without Milk since we are out. I decided it was work out time. I put my adorable Son in his highchair with some brown rice puffs, and pick a dance work out. O.M.G. the Salsa work out is awesome! My entire body was sweating, and I feel ready to tackle my day.
I chugged some water and now I am ready to find some healthy recipes.
This one I found looks amazing! Enjoy!

(Be sure to check back here tomorrow! I am going to be a featured blogger on Speaking From the Crib, so in honor of that I am going to be giving away some Progresso soup!)

I love Chinese food, but we all know it's SO unhealthy! This recipe sound yummy and I am going to be making it ASAP!

Mango Chicken Stir Fry
~~Ingredients:~~

•3/4 lb (375 g) boneless, skinless chicken breast, sliced
•1 1/2 teaspoons (7 mL) soy sauce
•1/4 teaspoon (1 mL) salt
•pinch white pepper
•1 teaspoon (5 mL) cornstarch
•2 teaspoons (10 mL) cider vinegar
•1 1/2 teaspoons (7 mL) ketchup
•1 1/2 teaspoons (7 mL) sugar
•2 tablespoons (25 mL) water
•1 star anise
•1 tablespoon (15 mL) canola oil
•1/2 medium green bell pepper, sliced
•1/2 medium red bell pepper, sliced
•1 tablespoon (15 mL) grated ginger
•1 teaspoon (5 mL) garlic
•1 large shallot, chopped
•2 large mangoes, peeled, pitted, thinly sliced
•16 toasted pecan halves
•2 sprigs cilantro

~~Preparation:~~
Combine chicken and marinade ingredients (1 1/2 teaspoons soy sauce, 1/4 teaspoon salt, pinch white pepper, and 1 teaspoon cornstarch) and marinate for 30 minutes.
Combine sauce ingredients (2 teaspoons cider vinegar, 1 1/2 teaspoons ketchup, 1 1/2 teaspoons sugar, 2 tablespoons water) and set aside.
Break off radial pieces of star anise and discard woody centre.
Gently press with knife to crack lightly.
In non-stick skillet or wok, heat oil and star anise over high heat. Add chicken and stir-fry for 3 minutes or until chicken just turns opaque.

Add peppers, ginger, garlic and shallots and stir-fry for 1 minute. Add sauce ingredients and stir to mix until sauce is slightly thickened, about 1 minute. Add mangoes and mix gently for 1 minute until heated through.

Garnish with pecans and cilantro and serve.
Each serving (not including toasted pecan halves) includes: Calories 269, 26 g Carbohydrates, 21 g Protein, 10 g Fat, 1 g Saturated Fat, 50 mg Cholesterol, 4 g Fibre, 330 mg Sodium, 420 mg Potassium. An excellent source of vitamin A, vitamin C, and niacin. A good source of fibre, vitamin E, vitamin B-6 and folacin.

"A Dream is a wish your heart makes"

2010-01-13T13:22:00.000-08:00

I have been humming this song all day. Cinderella is one of my absolute favorite Disney movies. I dream about being skinny lol Pretty sure my Heart wants me to be skinny, too!
For the last couple of days I have been struggling to get back on the right track. I decided the easiest way for me is to show you all what I am eating. It will be easier if I have a way to stay accountable.
Have I mentioned how Awesome my iPhone is? Oh I have? Ok well let me go on about it more.
A few Weeks ago I mentioned an App I downloaded called myfitnesspal (Which is also a website, so check it out by clicking the link!) where I can add in all the foods I am eating and it will keep track of how many Calories I have eaten, what I have burned and so on.
You can Screen shot with the iPhone. So, I decided I am going to start adding those with my posts. I am going to be completely honest, so on my Bad Days you can see how bad I have been.
This isn't to beat myself up, just to help me stay on Track. I have been thinking about Joining weight watchers but I am not sure. I am eating lower calorie meals, but I am not sure I am eating the right types of Food. Know what I mean?

Here are my screen shots. I guessed on calories for the 30-Day Shred because that wasn't programmed in.
So it may have been less than that.

Be sure to check back on Friday. My Progresso Soup review and giveaway will be that day! You wont want to miss out on your chance to win some cool stuff :)

iPhone bliss!

2010-01-11T06:19:00.001-08:00

I set up posting on my phone because you can't post on blogspot from the iPhone.
I have to be honest with all of you. I am having and extremely hard time staying motivated. I am sick, and so is my son so I have to admit I haven't been sticking to any sort of diet.
I ate McDonalds yesterday, and let me tell you...I paid for it. I was in the bathroom for hours yesterday with the worst stomach cramps I have ever had that wasn't caused by contractions.
Yesterday was the first time since I was 8 months pregnant that I wore a normal bra. Imagine my surprise when I realized I still had boobs! Nursing bras do nothing for your figure. Hehe.
Anyway, no more excuses today! I am getting back on track starting with setting up my food diary, a work out with Jillian, and lots and lots of water!

Sunday Citar-Marriage

2010-01-10T05:03:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I realized that my Husband and I have a great bond. We have been together for 6 years, married almost 4. It seems like out of all our old friends (With the exception of a few) we are the only two who are still married.
I am so thankful God gave me such a wonderful mate. We get on each others nerves, and he really can make me angry. But, as quick as I get mad he does something to make me smile again and the argument or the anger is just gone.

I just wanted to tell him how Special he is to me. So today's Sunday Citar is dedicated to my wonderful Husband, Matt.

Newlyweds become oldyweds, and oldyweds are the reasons that families work. ~Author Unknown

Success in marriage does not come merely through finding the right mate, but through being the right mate. ~Barnett R. Brickner

I want to Win this!

2010-01-10T04:43:00.000-08:00

And you will want to win this, too!

Click on the link above to get entered into Indiechick Designs Blog Makeover.
Her layouts are super cute, so check out her blog and enter to win.

Going Green for 2010?

2010-01-06T09:55:00.000-08:00

Enter this AWESOME Giveaway at The Honey B. Blog

You could win some Great Reusable bags :)

Plus, you should follow her. Her blog is pretty awesome!

"Remember when I used to be Fat?"

2010-01-06T09:50:00.000-08:00

Today I went into the Subway I worked at when I was 16 and ordered a Party Sub for my Son's First Birthday party. I saw my old Boss, and a skinny version of a Lady I used to work with.
I will call her "T" to protect her privacy. Anyway, T was making a Sandwich and I just stared at her for a few moments. I mean, she looked awesome! She has had 5 kids, and the last time I saw her she was pushing 300lbs.
She is down to 145lbs! She looked at me and smiled. I was like, "Wow T! You look skinny!" She smiled even bigger and said Thank you. I knew it was a big compliment. I can't wait for people to tell me I look skinny.
She continued to help a customer and when she came to take my party sub order she said, "Remember when I used to be Fat?" I asked her what she was doing to lose the weight. She said.."Hard work."
How true is that? I am so super proud of her. She was so excited it gave me a little boost.

SOUPER new you for 2010!

2010-01-05T06:02:00.000-08:00

My wonderful Husband got me an iPhone for Christmas. At first I wasn't sure what I would even use it for other than the normal text messaging, checking my e-mail and facebook.
Well, after yesterday I lit a fire under my rear. I log in to the app store and search for a Food Diary/Calorie Counter.
I was prepared to spend a few bucks to get something to help me. I mean, I have been watching what I eat, but I hate reading labels and honestly I haven't been doing a 100% job at tracking everything that goes into my mouth. I stumbled on to a few apps and one caught my eye because it was FREE. Not only do I want to be thin, but I'm pretty cheap also.
I download it and it's amazing! I already planned out my entire meal plan for today, including what my Husband's Grandpa is making us for dinner, and I still have 41 calories I can eat for today lol
The cool part is it tells you how much you should exercise (Mins of Cardio and strength) to acheive your monthly weight loss goal. Isn't that awesome?? And the best part is, it's not just an iPhone app.
Any of you can go to MyFitnessPal.com and try..FREE!

I also have some exciting news. A Progresso soup rep contacted me VIA e-mail a few weeks ago and asked me to try their New 100 calorie per serving soups and Blog about it. I received my package yesterday and boy let me tell you were they generous! They sent me 15 cans (all different flavors) of soup. Not to mention a cool Soup cup and a Jump rope that counts my strokes and calories burned.
What's awesome about it you ask? Once I have tried them all, I am going to blog about how I liked them and then I am going to give one of my readers a Soup Cup, Jump Rope, and 2 cans of soup to try for yourself! Isn't that exciting?
Plus, my Blog could end up on their website. Now that would be exciting!

Check out Progresso's SOUPER you Contest and enter for your chance to win a New York Makeover!

I worked out today for the first time since my Sisters wedding, and let me tell you..it was not easy. I really had to push myself today. I am smelly and ready for a snack.

Reality Check

2010-01-04T06:07:00.000-08:00

This morning I stepped on the scale to see the damage that had been done over the Holiday.
The week before Christmas with my sisters wedding and all I weighed myself because I knew I would be probably gaining some weight. I was 194 and I was SO happy!
Today, I am 198. I only gained 4lbs over the Holiday but to me it feels like a Giant step backwards.
I am trying extremely hard not to get discouraged. After all, it's only 4lbs. However, I am disappointed in myself.
I had a plan of action. I didn't work out but a few times. Ok, maybe like once.

Today is a new day. It's time to get back into gear and REALLY start to lose!
My new goal for 2010 is to be down to 150 (as before) by June. I say June because my cousin's wedding is in June :)

What was the Damage (If any) of your Holiday?

Goal for the month of January 10lbs. Weigh in on January 31st!

My Punishment

2009-12-30T01:34:00.000-08:00

I ate a piece of cheesecake last night. I cut my piece pretty small. But I am being punished. I woke up around 12:30am and my eye hurt pretty badly. I was lazy and didn't take off my eye makeup before bed so I figured one of my brittle mascara eye lashes was poking me in the eye. I get up, wash my face, and as I am patting my face dry I look in the mirror.
That's when I see it. A bright red, puffy, gooey eye. I am only assuming it's Pink eye. Feels like a piece of sand is in my eye and it burns and stings. I grimace at my reflection. I don't have Health insurance and I really don't want to spend my entire day at the Free Clinic. But, I do have a 10 month old infant and His health means more to me than anything so I am willing to sit my rear in the waiting room of the clinic to get antibiotic drops so this doesn't spread to him.
My immediate thought was:

"Oh Crap! I was rubbing my face all over his belly and kissing him all over on his face as we were laying in bed!"

I struggled with my Mommy moment of wanting to wake him up and give him a bath. I, of course, didn't because every Mom (And even thoughs who are always around kids) know how cranky babies can be when you wake them up mid-hibernation. Or is that bears?
At any rate, I didn't want to do that to my little guy so I found sanitizing whipes and gently washed his little hands and tummy.
I fell asleep and woke up just about 20 minutes ago (It's 4:30 in the AM, Mind you) and I couldn't even open my eye.

Gosh, it was only one piece of Cheesecake.

Cheese cake and Exercise

2009-12-29T07:24:00.000-08:00

Sunday was my Husband's Grandmother's Birthday. Every Tuesday we get together at their house with some of his family and have Dinner. We call it "Taco Tuesday" because it started out as Taco's on Tuesday..get it? Anyway, I asked Grandma what she wanted to make her for dessert crossing my fingers that "Cheese cake" wouldn't be what she wanted.
But, that's exactly what she said. The words came leaping from her mouth like a stab to my heart..or stomach.
Cheese cake is easy to make, and I have made them a lot so it's simple for me. That's not the problem.
The problem is..I LOVE cheese cake! It's so rich and creamy and I make the New York style and smother it in homemade Strawberry sauce and sometimes even a chocolate sauce.
I made it for Grandma because I love her and after all, it is her Birthday. My Delima, and I am sure you knew this was coming, is that I want to eat this cheese cake. Even just a piece. I have been a bad girl and honestly need to cut out sweets all together. I haven't gained any weight but I haven't lost any either, and that's what makes me sad.

I have been bad about my enthusiasm to lose weight. Everyone says it happens. Everyone says you get to a point and you just aren't as excited. I have hit that spot. This week it is my goal to work out every day. I did a half work out yesterday. It was pretty sad in all honesty.
My Body felt the burn within a moment because of the fact it's been awhile since I have gotten my chunky butt moving.
I still have visions of Pin up bathing suits dancing in my head for Summer and if I'm going to acheive it I need to get my butt in gear.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Holiday. New Years resolutions are coming up, and I am going to do a New Years (week, since it's only fair to give you a little time to enter) Giveaway! Not going to tell you what it is yet, you'll just have to wait for New Years day!

Merry Christmas :)

2009-12-25T06:42:00.000-08:00

It has been literally a few weeks since I have last posted.
I have missed you world!
I have been so busy the last few weeks. My sister's wedding went smoothly, and I have to admit, it was very beautiful.

My sister looked incredible in her dress, and my Handsome Brother in law looked wonderful in Uniform.
Not the greatest picture since it was taken with my iPhone (which was my Christmas gift BTW!) but you get the picture.
My son did a wonderful Job as a ring bearer. Of course he didn't walk down the aisle but was pulled in a Wagon.
He started crying when they first sat him in it, but as soon as he saw all those people looking at him and Smiling he was all grins.

Today is Christmas, which means last night was the Christmas party filled with fattening foods that I have been dreading for the past several months. I did pretty well. I haven't worked out for almost 2 weeks and I honestly miss it. Tomorrow is a new day though, and I plan on jumping back on that wagon.
Well, I have missed you Blog..and will be back to regular posting today! YAY :)

MIA

2009-12-15T18:52:00.001-08:00

Hey all! Just wanted to put a quick Apology out there. I have been extremely busy this past week.
I wont be around much until after the Holiday. But I will pop on and let you all know what's going on.
My sisters wedding is this Saturday so right now we are preparing for that.
Thank you all for the support!

Pictures from Toledo Friday!

2009-12-12T07:05:00.000-08:00

So I thought I would share with you all pictures from yesterday.
I never really realized how much I missed Jenny until I actually saw her and got to spend time with her. It makes me want to move to Toledo just so we can hang out again.
If you want to read "Toledo Friday" click HERE

(Left to right: My Monkey, Me, Jenny, her son Cameron)

US! I look REALLY big in this picture, but that's ok lol

Our sweet boys :)

Visit Joy to Win Martha!

2009-12-12T06:56:00.000-08:00

Joy to the Blog is giving away a year subscription to Martha Stewart living to one lucky winner.
So check out her blog to enter and then stick around to read some great Stuff!
She's one great Lady!

Toledo Friday

2009-12-11T09:25:00.000-08:00

I met Jenny when I was 11. We met one summer at Church Camp. I was standing in line waiting to get Registered with my Mom when this girl with wild Red hair, plaid shorts and a cream colored tank top walks up to me and says, "Hi I'm Fred." I look at her for a moment and realized she had one of those googly eyes rings on and was making her hand talk like a puppet.
"Hi." I said as I raised one eye brow and looked at my Mom like this girl was nuts. My Mom just smiled and didn't say anything.
It was my first year at camp. My first entire week away from my parents without my sisters. I was nervous but didn't want to tell anyone. I was chubby, and Homeschooled so during the school year I didn't see many people unless it was at church 3-times a week. I had been made fun of a lot for being over weight so I was afraid I wouldn't make any friends.
She never stopped smiling the entire time she was standing next to me. "Well, my real name is Jennifer, but everyone calls me Jenny." I smiled and told her my name. "Is this your first time at camp?" she asked me. I just nodded. "We're going to be best friends." She said and linked her arm through mine. And she was right. We were best friends. All of my best childhood memories have her in them. She took me from being shy, to be coming a very outgoing person. Honestly, she taught me more life lessons than anyone else ever had. We were the famous crazy girls at camp. Playing practical jokes on the Security guards, drinking lots of Mt.Dew and running around screaming, dancing in the rain when everyone else was inside watching movies or what have you.
After camp we always stayed in touch every year. Spending hours on the phone laughing. My Mom said she always knew who I was talking to because I would be laughing so hard and loud it was obvious my Red headed partner in crime was on the phone with me. We talked about boys, but mostly just about life in general. Our dreams were always acheiveable and never out of reach.
As we grew up we still stayed in touch. Not so much these last couple of years. I have had a new address every year since my Husband was in the Navy. So circumstance has come between us.
I still consider her to be one of my only true friends.
Today we are driving to Toledo to visit her. For days I have been excited to see her, and just catch up.
I am so excited I could barely sleep last night.
True friends like that are hard to come by.

"I want to go shopping"

2009-12-10T07:52:00.000-08:00

Last night I realized how unattractive it is to see the butt of your jeans sag. I was bending over picking up some toys in our bedroom when I heard my little sister giggle. I quickly realize my butt has made and escape from my pants and my butt crack was popping probably a few inches. "Get a belt" she tells me as she is laughing at me as I wiggle my pants back on. You know the wiggle. You grab your pants by the belt loops and do a not-so-sexy shimmy while pulling your pants back up your hips. I look in the mirror and even with my pants up the butt in my jeans is sagging. I look like a 75 year old man who is wearing pants too big.

I need new jeans. I haven't weighed myself yet. I haven't tried on a smaller size pants yet. Honestly, I am a little scared. I am afraid of failure more than anything. I am afraid of getting into a dressing room with an arm full of pants that wont fit me.
I have been fairly good. This month has been extremely hard for me to stick with my diet.
Excuse #1 for that is my sisters wedding is next weekend and even after having my dress taken in almost 3 inches it's still loose on me.
Yay for me for losing some weight since I had it fitted, but bad news for my wallet so I cannot afford to not be able to fit into my dress. I have used that as an excuse to not try as hard this month to lose more than 5lbs.

I haven't used the Holiday's as an excuse. I am planning on following all the advice I have received and decided to Work out a lot, use a small plate, and drink lots of water. I do not want to go backwards and gain all my weight back.

Wordless Wednesday

2009-12-09T07:02:00.000-08:00

Well, almost wordless. My Son can make the craziest faces. I am pretty sure he gets that from me. I had to share this one because it always makes me laugh. He's so crazy lol

Merry SITSmas...oh and Christmas!

2009-12-08T09:34:00.000-08:00

From our Family to yours, I want to wish everyone a

Very Merry Christmas, and a Happy Holiday!

Today is the SITSmas Party! If you're thinking, "What the heck is SITS?" Check it out HERE

I am really excited because this is Jude's first Christmas. I cannot wait to see him tear into presents and only play with the boxes :)

A Holiday post would not be complete without mentioning Food. As you know (Or maybe you don't if you are new to my blog) I am going to continue to eat less even during the Holiday.
Matt's Aunt Luella is a finger food Goddess. I mean this lady can make hors d'oeuvres like you have never dreamed. She always finds the best recipes, and nothing is ever bigger than a half dollar piece.
On Christmas eve we all get together at his Grandparents house, eat, drink, play games and prepare food for the Christmas feast.
Aunt Luella makes all these little snacks that could entice even the strongest willed person, and I end up stuffing myself so much by 1 am when we leave I feel as if I could purge.
I am weak when it comes to food. Why, oh why does food always know how to break me down?
This year I am going armed. With a 2 liter bottle of water that is. I am going to chug that puppy like there is no tomorrow. I will chug it in hopes that my stomach will be so full of water I couldn't possibly pig out on the Crab ball, Spicy chicken corn muffins, and especially those little ham, cream cheese and scallion devils.
I need to stay strong. Perhaps I can take healthy options with me. I probably wont, because I love all these foods. I just need to practice self control this Holiday and not eat enough for 4 people like I normally do.

What is your strategy for not pigging out this Holiday?

Birthday Cake and Chinese Food

2009-12-07T07:12:00.000-08:00

This weekend was full of crazy eating and foods I would have rather avoided. My Nephew turned 1 year old and the party was fun an full of great food that wasn't so great for you.
My sisters Bachelorette party also had cake..the male Anatomy kind. I would post pictures, but I can't bring myself to do it lol
After running around all weekend and not really getting a chance to just be together, My Husband and I decided to go out to dinner. We haven't really gone out to dinner in a while since I am on the path to changing my eating habits. I told him he could choose where we ate. He of course chose Chinese food which I haven't had in a very long time. The smell when we walked in was intoxicating and I felt myself drooling at the thought of egg rolls and Won Ton soup. We sat down at our table and they bring you fried Won tons for free. Free. So of course I ate them, with the sour sauce they bring with them. My Husband and I love Crab cheese, and we got those too.
I soon felt my stomach filling and we hadn't even gotten our Dinners yet. I continued to eat like I hadn't eaten in a million years. I ate until I felt like my stomach was going to literally explode.
After I ate I realized that I totally ruined everything I have been working so hard on. I started to play the "Way to go, you idiot!" game with myself and then stopped.
This is why people can't recover from a weekend or a day of ruining their diets. They think, "Oh well, it's already ruined why stop now?" this is how the mind tricks you into thinking to aren't strong enough to recover from a day or a few of not keeping your eyes on your goal.
My Strategy to fix it is to drink lots of water, Exercise a little longer than normal today and eat less. Kind of counter act my long nightmare weekend.

Sunday Citar- Love

2009-12-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

Matt & I (Time square,New York, NY 2006)

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

drum roll and the winner is...

2009-12-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

JOY! From Joy to the Blog

Get a hold of me at my e-mail address so I can get your address.

You will receive 1 year of cooking light magazine!
CONGRATS :)

I was supposed to announce the winner yesterday, but between my nephews birthday party and my sister bachelorette party I was exhausted. So, better late than never!

Dress to impress..or basically just impress.

2009-12-04T10:47:00.000-08:00

My Dress for my sisters wedding came in today. It has been altered and it's again loose on me. I cannot afford to have them take it in again, so I am just going to leave it and pray I don't look like a bag lady at my sisters wedding.
I am so proud of myself for losing the weight I have so far. I am glad I will feel more confident in front of a bunch of people I have known for a while and some I have never met.
I am so scared I will lose even more weight and It'll fall off of me at the wrong time lol

Anyway, My sister Brittlyn (Britt-Lyn) has started a blog.

Check out

and show her some bloggy love!

I need to get my butt in gear

2009-12-03T07:06:00.000-08:00

I haven't exercised in like 4 days. I have a sinus infection or something and so does my Boy so I haven't done anything but wake up, shower, feed him and myself and sleep.
I also am severly dehydrated so whenever I walk up the stairs I have no energy.
Anyone know of a great Homeopathic remedy for sinus infections? I don't have health insurance, and I could go to the health department if I need to..but I don't want to.
I need to get my booty in gear if I want to lose the rest of my weight (Which happens to be 50-something pounds) by Summer.

On a Side note, today is my Nephew Tristan's Birthday!

He is 1 years old and I cannot believe how fast this year has gone by.
Tristan being a year old reminds me that in 2 short months my own baby will be a year old.
I am so thankful for both of the little ones in my life!

Hump Day humor

2009-12-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

I found this Joke online and I had to share. I literally Laughed out Loud. Enjoy!

"A woman walked up to a little old man rocking in a chair on his porch. "I couldn't help noticing how happy you look," she said. "What's your secret for a long happy life?"

"I smoke three packs of cigarettes a day," he said. "I also drink a case of whiskey a week, eat fatty foods, and never exercise."That's amazing," the woman said. "How old are you?"

"Twenty-six," he said."

Another great giveaway!

2009-11-30T14:32:00.000-08:00

Joanna is giving away a Canvas print. You have to check it out! Follow her too. She has wonderful recipes and great stuff to offer in her blog.
If you're interested in entering the giveaway, click HERE

Let the Madness begin

2009-11-30T07:04:00.000-08:00

It's almost December. Can anyone believe how fast this year has gone by? I honestly can't believe the year is almost over and it feels like it has just begun. I feel I was just kissing my husband at Midnight to wish him a happy new year, and now we are approaching another year. I have so many things to do this month. Would you like a list?

My Nephew's Birthday party on Saturday
My Sisters Bachelorette party Saturday evening
Shopping for both said parties
My sisters Rehersal and Dinner on the 18th
My sisters wedding on the 19th
Christmas with my Husbands Step Dads family on the 20th
Dinner with my husbands family on the 24th
Christmas day at Moms
Christmas Day at my Inlaws extended family
Sqeeze in christmas and wedding shopping.
Squeeze in a visit with Santa

Somehow I have to do all of this and NOT eat fast food. The Golden Arches have been calling my name. When I am frazzled I want french fries and a Icey cold Dr.Pepper. Why? Why do you crave bad things when you are exhausted and stressed?

20 days until my next weigh in, and I cheated and stepping on the scale today. I was mighty surprised by what I saw, and I cannot wait until they next weigh in post!

I started Jillian again the other day. She is cruel, and my body felt the pain for days. I gave myself a day or so to rest and for my muscles to heal. I have to start again today. I love working out, but I hate how my muscles burn whenever I move. I feel like an old lady after a work out. I grimace and say "ouch!" whenever I stand up. Walking down stairs sucks as well.

It's good though, right?

Today my goal is to drink 64oz of water. I don't know why but I have been so bad about getting enough water in. It's all I drink but I just don't drink enough of it during the day.
The skin on my stomach looks like bread dough. My Mother so lovingly pointed it out the other day when Jude pulled up my shirt while he was nursing. "I know" is all I could say. I didn't know what else to say. She's right. It's like bread dough..I can kneed it. The skin is loose and I can pull it from my body like elastic.
Does it ever go away without a tummy tuck? This is my question. Because if not I will win the prize at the Beach for longest flesh apron. Reaching to probably my knees.

By the way, I switched my comments to having to be approved because I feel like a meany when I don't visit everyone's Blog after you leave me a comment. I like to return the favor, ya know :) Sometimes, I don't even know people have commented on something because I don't get to look all the time. This should help me keep up :)

Sunday Citar- Children

2009-11-29T08:07:00.000-08:00

"Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of man." ~Rabindranath Tagore

"While we try to teach our children all about life,
Our children teach us what life is all about."
~Angela Schwindt

"Women gather together to wear silly hats, eat dainty food, and forget how unresponsive their husbands are. Men gather to talk sports, eat heavy food, and forget how demanding their wives are. Only where children gather is there any real chance of fun. " ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

"What are you eating under there?"

2009-11-28T17:50:00.000-08:00

A true testament to how chubby I was when I was a kid was sneaking under the Dining room table to eat butter. Of all things a 6 year old sneaks under the table to eat is butter.Butter doesn't even taste good unless it's melted on something delicious like toast or a big plate of waffles.
I remember my sister, who is skinny, crawled underneath the table with me and ate Salt.
Maybe that's why she's so thin, she was super dehydrated as a child. I am kidding.

So how did I do during the Holiday? All I can say is I feel I did pretty well.
I will be honest, I ate Pie and drank a Dr. Pepper. But I didn't have potatoes or rolls. I wanted them, and they smelled so good I was salivating as I passed them on the buffet line at my in-laws.
I didn't gain any weight and I worked out yesterday to counter act it.
My little one is sick again so I haven't done much of anything today. I honestly think it's just teething.

How did you dieting buddies of mine do?

Black(eye) Friday

2009-11-27T06:43:00.000-08:00

Oh you Black Friday shoppers know it.
You clean up your Kitchen on Thursday evening, maybe watch a little TV, shower and then head to the Store you feel has the best deal to camp out.
Yes, some people Literally camp out, Tents and all.
This year I didn't go shopping, but I feel in Honor of this wonderful day I should share a Black(Eye) Friday story with you.
I love to shop. Especially on Black Friday when they have all the things I covet during the year on sale.
Sometime's it's nothing important. Maybe a set of sheets, kitchen items or Video Games that my Geeky-Gaming Husband wants.
In the past I have cooked Thanksgiving dinner myself and had Military Members who couldn't take leave for the Holiday come over and stuff themselves to the brink of bursting before they stop.
Then I would clean up, and we would all play games and watch Movies until about Midnight.
That's when things would get serious. We maped out where we wanted to go, made a strategy and off we would go.
Last year I was 8 months Pregnant and Giant. We were living in Great Lakes, Illinois because my Husband was still in the Navy. We decided to go to the Gurnee Mills Mall because they had something that one of the guys wanted to buy and hey, it's a mall. I was sure we would find something I wanted.
We get there to a mob of people standing in line. Everyone was waiting for them to open the doors like we were about to enter the Willy Wonka Chocolate factory.
Once inside people were literally running to get to stores that had the best deals with their elbows out so anyone who dared pass them would surely regret it. This made me giggle.
At about 1am people were getting testy. Fights over items were happening before my eyes. The classic Tug-and-pull game in the Disney Store was happening, people cutting line and then fights began.
We were walking by American Eagle (which hadn't opened yet) when we heard yelling, and people getting pushed into the glass of the store. It was bowing and looked like it was about to break.
My husband and friends decided to "Take a closer look" as some kid was getting his face stomped in by 6 other kids. I couldn't believe that 1) my Husband left his pregnant Wife unattended while a fight was happening and people were running past me almost knocking me over, and 2) that they would actually WANT to see some guy get his face stomped in.
So I walked away a little out of the line of running people so I wouldn't crush my unborn child, because some crazed black friday shopper just had to sprint across the Mall to get a great deal on Socks, when I see a young man running towards the fight. It was almost slow motion as I watched him reach his hands in his pants and tug on what I was about to learn was a Gun.
The Lady next to me yells, "He's got a GUN!" (Insert screams of dozens of people)
I instantly start to panic searching the crowed for my Husband and his friends. I start walking away anyway, I mean Hello..I am pregnant and not about to lose my baby because some idiot brought a Gun to the mall.
All of a sudden Someone puts his arm around my hips and lifts and pushes. When I turn to look, It's Kelly. My Husbands friend. At that moment he was superman. "We gotta get out of here" he says. I couldn't agree more!

Do you have any Black Friday stories? I love hearing about them. Going shopping the day after Thanksgiving is a little crazy, but so much fun!

Happy Thanksgiving to all!

2009-11-26T06:30:00.000-08:00

Today I have a Strategy. I plan. I am determined NOT to gain my 10lbs back in one stinkin day.
I am going to be strong, I am going to be strong! I have 2 dinners to attend. That is 2 Turkeys, 6 pies, mounds of potatoes, Green Bean casserole, and other goodies to say NO to.
What's my plan you ask? Tiny Helpings. Yes, you read that right. I am eating a small portion of whatever I want. Less than the size of my hand probably. I will not be eating Rolls or Potatoes. It will be hard. I love both so much! But that will add way too many calories and I have 2 meals to eat! I will not be eating but 1 piece of Pumpkin pie. No whipped cream. It's the Holiday. I have to cut myself a little slack..not much though.
So my Dieting friends, give yourself a little break today! Good luck to all of you today.

Give Thanks with a Greatful Heart

2009-11-25T17:54:00.000-08:00

Today as we are preparing for Thanksgiving I realized how thankful I am for my Wonderful Family.
I don't know what I would do without the help of my Parents, Matt's Parents, Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles. They seriously have done more for us in the last 6 months than I could have ever dreamed them to do.
People keep asking me what I am thankful for. I keep telling everyone I have so much to be thankful for.
This year I gave Birth to a wonderful, healthy baby boy who has enriched my life in so many ways.
I am thankful for my Amazing Husband who works hard to take care of us, loves us unconditionally, and is always by my side. Without Matt, my right hand man, I don't know how I would have gotten through this crazy year. Yes, I get on him about stuff he doesn't do..but never quite remember to Thank him for the things he does do. He has stayed with us through thick and thin. I am eternally thankful.

As we are stuffing ourselves tomorrow, having a wonderful time with our friends and Families, watching football and playing games, Remember those who don't have anyone this Holiday. Maybe invite someone you know has no one over for dinner, drop some food off at a local food bank, or take some unused items to the Goodwill.
Hold your loved ones close. Love without conditions. Say a prayer for those in need, and try and do something about it.

Check out Angel Food Ministries and find a local Food Bank near you. Donate!

My hair Cut

2009-11-24T11:43:00.000-08:00

Tah Dah!

Whatcha think?

When I first got it cut, I didn't like it at all. It has grown on me though :) It actually makes my face look thinner I think.

(Click HERE if you are looking for the Cooking Light Giveaway!)

My muffin top is better than yours.

2009-11-24T07:07:00.000-08:00

About a month or so ago I would cry whenever I would squeeze myself into my pre-pregnancy jeans. I mean I would literally Sob.My Stomach was so flabby the tightness of my under-the-waist jeans would force all the fat to my throat and spill over the top in a muffin top that would have made Mama Cass look thin.
I would look at myself in the mirror and just cry. I had to force the zipper up and the button looked like it was going to burst. It would be my luck it would burst open when I was in public and hit someone in the head, or take out an eye. My stomach felt restricted and it was literally screaming at me to be freed.
Today, I put them on and they felt like they did before! I was not skinny before I got pregnant. I was over weight. But my clothes at least fit and I had a lot of self confidence.
They are actually kind of loose. LOOSE! In case you didn't get that I thought I'd scream it out for you. My stomach actually fits inside them and I don't have a muffin top that people can see for miles.
My Husband's Aunt bought me a shirt from Jamaica and she got an extra large. I put it on today and it's too big. You should have seen the smile on my face as I danced around our Bedroom. My baby and my Husband both awkwardly smiling at me like I had lost my mind.
With the Holiday's coming up I have been really worried about over eating and gaining my weight back.
I decided I am not worrying about it. This of course doesn't mean I am going to pig out. I think I will stay away from pies, cookies, and the divine sweet potato casserole my Darling Mother makes.
We have 2 dinners to attend, so not over eating will surely be a challenge.
I can do this though. Thanksgiving isn't going to undo me. I hope you that are dieting with me don't let it undo you either!

My very First giveaway!

2009-11-23T14:10:00.000-08:00

I was going to wait until my *100th* post to do a giveaway. But, I am in a giving mood and would love to share my Favorite magazine with one of my readers!

Cooking Light Magazine is super awesome. It is Packed with recipes. Some are healthier than others, but I promise you all are delicious. Did I mention this is a 1-Year subscription? That's 12 Issues! A $53.89 dollar Value. Is that great or what? You'll get an entire year of great Food.

Rules (Oh, this will be easy ;) ):

You MUST be a follower (So if you aren't, just follow me. You wont regret it, I promise!)

How do you enter you ask?

Comment this post and tell me how much you'd LOVE this magazine (Just because it's awesome)

Now that wont be hard, will it? Want some bonus'? Each of these little dandies will get you an EXTRA entry!
(Let me know which one's you have done in a separate comment.)

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You have until December 10th to Enter.
Good Luck!

$50 Dollar Amazon Gift card giveaway!

2009-11-23T13:51:00.000-08:00

Check out Actual Scales Blog and enter her giveaway for your chance to win a $50 Amazon.com Gift card!

This is a fellow Mom who is blogging her way through weight loss. Her blog is awesome and very encouraging!
Check it out, even if you aren't interested in winning the Giveaway.

Button, button, everyone needs a button!

2009-11-23T13:23:00.001-08:00

Testing My button!

WOO! After like an hour and half of creating and getting the HTML right for my button, here it is!
So if you're a fan of my blog, and would like to show some Fat Mom love on your blog,
copy the Link below the button

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Click on Edit layout, Add Gadget, and then paste it into HTML/JAVAScript

My Heart

2009-11-22T07:30:00.000-08:00

Jude- One week old. February 2009

My Darling Son, From the moment I laid my eyes on you I knew my life would be completely changed.
Changed in a way I would never forget. A change that would make me forget life without you, and pray

to never have to live that way again. You are my special gift from God.
You and your Daddy are my Heart.
I am happy I get to watch you grow big and strong, to become a man of Integrity and of God.
My every Prayer for you is of safety and love.
Be blessed, my Darling.

Love Always,
Mommy

Cooking Light: White Bean and Kale Stew (10 of 10 scale of YUM)

2009-11-20T18:50:00.000-08:00

This recipe is so awesome. It is from the "Cooking Light: Hearty fall flavors" Magazine.

As you can see, even Picky eaters give this a thumbs up!

White Bean and Kale Stew

1 pound dried Great Northern Beans
2 Applewood-smoked bacon slices
2 Cups chopped onion (approx. 2 medium onions)
6 Garlic cloves, Minced.
6 Cups MSG-Fat-free, Less sodium Chicken broth
2 Cups Water
1 1/2 tbsp Minced fresh Thyme
1 tbsp minced fresh rosemary
1 bunch Kale, stemmed and cut into 2-inch pieces (about 5 cups)
1 (2 oz) Parmigiano-Reggiano rind
2 tbsp fresh Lemon juice.

Directions

Sort and wash beans; place in large bowl. Cover with water to 2 inches above beans; cover and let stand 8 hours. Drain.
Cook bacon in a large dutch oven over medium heat until crisp. Remove bacon from pan, reserving 2 tbsp drippings in pan; crumble. Add onion to drippings in pan; cook 6 minutes or until tender, stirring occasionally. Add garlic to pan; cook 30 seconds.
Add beans, broth, 2 cups water, thyme, rosemary, and kale to pan; bring to a boil. Add rind to pan. Cover, reduce heat, and simmer 1 hour and 15 minutes or until beans are tender. Remove from heat; discard rind. Stir in Lemon Juice. Yield 8 servings (serving size: 1 1/2 cups)

Nutritional Facts:
Calories: 307(19% from fat).
Fat: 6.6g
Protein: 20.5g
Carbs:44.2g
Fiber: 10.9g
Cholesterol: 11mg

Sleep in Friday

2009-11-20T10:23:00.000-08:00

Today my Husband and I were lazy bums. We got up at the usual 7:30am with Jude. We came down stairs, fed Jude breakfast. I read my Bible, and spent some time with God. Then I was exhausted. I could barely keep my eyes open at 10am. Jude was nursing and struggling to fall asleep. I looked at my Husband and asked if he wanted to go lay down..for the baby of course. We get up there and all 3 of us zonk out until 1pm.
I can't believe how we wasted our entire day in bed. But it was SO nice!
I still need to work out today. I haven't eaten anything yet either. Bad momma!

trumpets sound Weigh in Day!

2009-11-19T06:31:00.000-08:00

Ok, First a little Recap if you will. This is me on October 19, 2009 exactly 1 month ago.

Weight: 206

Measurements:

Bust: 48

Waist: 54

Hips: 49

BMI (Body mass index): 35.4

And TODAY! (Don't mind my crazy hair, I had to quickly have my hubby take pictures for me before he left for the day lol)

Weight: 197!

Chest: 43

Waist: 47 1/2

Hips: 46

BMI: 33.8

Ok, so I didn't quite make 10lbs but it's so close I wont beat myself up over it. 9lbs lost! I wore my pants down so they were kind of hanging off my hips so they couldn't cover anything up.
Can you see a difference?
My clothes are fitting better, and I feel great!
My next step is 5lbs. My sisters wedding is next month and I can't afford to not fit into my dress. I am still going to exercise and continue what I'm doing. Instead of 6 days a week I think I will drop my work out to about 4. YAY! The scale is my proof lol No scale tricks!

Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I'll Love ya, Tomorrow!

2009-11-18T14:31:00.000-08:00

Yes, it's only a day away! My Weigh in that is. I am Stoked beyond belief!

I will be posting it Later in the evening because my Husband is visiting his cousin in Jail and I wont have anyone to take a picture of me until he gets back in the late afternoon. But I pinky promise I will post it. I am too excited to forget and even if I did forget I am sure someone would remind me.

I hope I lost at least half of what I wanted to. Otherwise I will be embarrassed.
But we'll see how it goes. I can't wait!

Skinny Jeans Day dreaming..

2009-11-17T06:37:00.000-08:00

I want to wear skinny jeans! I want to wear them with cute little flats, or inside a cute pair of boots.
Have you ever seen a really fat girl wear skinny jeans?

To me it looks like a tube of tooth paste that's been squeezed from the bottom and all of the paste it squished to the top about ready to pop off the top in an explosion that would make the atom bomb jealous.

I was looking through a Magazine last night and saw all these cute clothes I am too fat to buy.

Yes, I say ~~Fat~~ because that's what I am. Fat doesn't offend me.

I am so over buying ugly Granny plus sized clothing. Torrid is a great place to shop if you have extra junk in the trunk and want to look Fabulous..but I am not made of money and while I would love to shop there, and would probably be comfortable staying a chunky monkey the rest of my life, I cannot afford to spend $45 dollars on a cute shirt or $60 on a pair of pants. So I am stuck shopping at Walmart, Target and the like of cheap stores that also have all your Groceries and tampons in one place.
This does not embarrass me. It's not what's covering my butt and chunk that makes who I am.
Most likely, I will continue to shop these places even when I am a size 12. But I don't want to have to buy clothes that my Grandmother would probably wear just because her and I happen to be fat.
I want variety in my cheapness.

What I am really looking forward to the most is Skinny Jeans.

Oh.My.Gosh!

2009-11-16T06:51:00.000-08:00

Only 3 days until my Weigh in! I am so anxious to see what the scale will say, what my handy-dandy pink tape measurer will say..what YOU will say when I post new photos of me. I am so giddy I could jump up and down and shout it out!
It's Monday. It's a gloomy, gray day. But I feel Happy. I feel alive, and fresh even though I am still sweaty and stinky from my morning work out.

My sister's wedding is next month. When I picked out my dress it was before I decided I wanted to lose weight. I found the perfect one in a size 18.

Even in the size 18 you could see my "Baby apron" through the fabric so I grabbed a pair of Spanx and squeezed myself in them. It made my body look pretty smoothe. I thought to myself, "Self, you should order a size 16. Just in case you lose some weight." Then I put that thought to the back of my mind, I mean come on. Lose weight with Thanksgiving coming up? I planned on stuffing myself with Green bean casserole and Rolls. I knew my Rolls would get bigger, but hey..I was already fat. Why care?
I ordered the dress in an 18. It came in on Saturday. I brought it home anxious to try it on. I figured it would be a little loose.

Guess what?! I can put it on WITHOUT unzipping it!

Guess what else?! You CANNOT see my Baby Apron! It doesn't fit. It looks like a bag on me. I don't have to wear Spanx!

So today, I have to go to David's Bridal and pray they have a smaller Size in the right color. If not, I'll have to pick something else..but in a different size! It may just be a couple of sizes smaller, but this was the Booster I needed to continue on losing weight and watching what I eat.

Love's Revolution

2009-11-14T02:58:00.000-08:00

Today I am going to a Woman's Event at Church called, "Love Revolution"
I am REALLY excited. Even though I don't feel well, I am going to go. I pre-registered probably a month ago lol My Mom is going to watch my little one for me since my husband has to work.
I have mentioned before I am a Christian, and I am really looking forward to spending the day in Church hearing things I haven't before.
I must quickly shower, chug some water, and be off!

I leave you with one of my favorite songs.

Get down with the sickness..

2009-11-13T04:46:00.000-08:00

Yes, I have caught whatever my little cutie had. I keep praying it goes away before tomorrow since I have a Woman's conference at Chruch. Jude is fine today! Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts of healing.
He hasn't had a fever in 2 days now and his sinuses have finally cleared. Woo!
I had so many plans for this week. They have quickly fallen to the wayside. I am feeling like poo.

Today is Nation "To write love on her arms" day. Help raise awareness for Suicide, Self-harm and depression!

You wont look crazy, you may help save someone's life today!

Cook yourself Thin- Pizza

2009-11-11T17:20:00.000-08:00

Serves 4

Ready in 20 minutes

Ingredients

4 white pitta breads
Small can of pizza sauce, low sodium
2 pinches of hot chilli powder
2 sundried tomatoes, thinly sliced
4 thin slices of pepperoni, shredded into strips
1/4 small red onion, thinly sliced
1/2 small yellow pepper, thinly sliced
8 green olives, pitted and halved
5g freshly grated parmesan
30g ricotta cheese
A small handful of shredded basil leaves
Balsamic vinegar

Directions
1. Preheat a conventional oven to 350 degrees. Run a sharp knife in from the edge of each pitta bread and follow the outline to remove the top layer of bread and create a border for the pizzas.

2. Place the pittas directly onto the top shelf of the oven and cook for two minutes to crisp up.

3. Meanwhile, place the chopped tomatoes in a sieve to remove all the excess juice. Divide the tomatoes among the pittas and spread out evenly.

4. Sprinkle each with the chilli powder. Top with the sundried tomatoes, pepperoni, red onion, pepper and olives. Sprinkle over the parmesan and dot the ricotta on top.

5. Bake the pittas directly on the oven shelf for eight minutes or until cooked. Serve immediately, scattered with the basil and drizzled with balsamic vinegar.

Calories Per Serving: 280

Calories per Serving Pepperoni Pizza: 340 Calories

Oy Vey!

2009-11-11T05:35:00.000-08:00

My little one is Sick. His rectal (Yes, eww!) temp is 102.5 So far I have been able to keep it down with Tylenol. He didn't start running a fever until after the Doctor's office closed and they aren't open today so if I were to make an appointment we would have to go to the after hours clinic. I hate going there, so I am hoping he continues to be ok until tomorrow when the office is open again.
My poor little monkey. I hate it when he is sick. He looks so pitiful. When he has a fever his entire body is on fire. He gets it from me.
If you pray, Pray for healing. I am putting my Faith in God that it's nothing serious.
We don't have Medical insurance right now since my Husband got out of the Navy. I tried getting state assistance for Health care at least for my son, but because we live with my Parents at the time we don't qualify. I of course have no problem paying out of Pocket for my son to get better, this is not at all what bums me out. I am just bummed my little guy is sick. I am just praying it doesn't pass on to me.
He is still nursing, eating some solids, giggling, cruising around, playing and chewing on everything in sight so I am not too worried.

Anyway, I am still going to post a "cook yourself thin" recipe today!
Yesterday I only worked out a little since Jude was sick. I challenged my Former Military Husband to a sit ups contest. He LOST. Can you believe that? I won. Me. The chubbier one with looser Abs since I had 34lbs of extra fluids, baby, and other gunk stretching my body to the absolute limit.
He's a little over weight himself..but it hasn't been THAT long. I couldn't contain myself when I won. I shook my booty and Neener-Neenered in his face. He said, "That's fine. I am going to eat another cookie." lol I told him I was just kidding and gave him a kiss and a hug. But in my head I was still giddy like a little girl on Christmas day.

8 Days til Weigh in!

Monday, Monday...

2009-11-09T20:17:00.000-08:00

So, this Monday has been a "blah" day for me. My Husband and I have spent the entire day in court (one of his Family members is in a mighty pickle) and it was terrible.
Court makes me nervous. Of course I am not the one in a pickle, but just walking through the metal detector, seeing someone who my Husband loves dearly shackled and in day-glow orange almost made me puke. Then I had terrible heartburn the rest of the day.
I was supposed to start "Cook yourself thin" today but have been running around busy all day, and honestly once I was finally home I just wanted to snuggle my baby boy and pray he never ends up in a Pickle..
I generally eat when I am stressed, but tonight I fought the urge. I instead watched house with a big glass of Water with lots of ice cubes (and a curly straw) and snuggled my sweaty 20lb lump of snuggly wonderfulness.
I will be back to my Honestly cute-chubby-creative self tomorrow :)

10 days til weigh in!

For Me?! An Award!?

2009-11-08T15:39:00.000-08:00

Yes! Look! Someone gave me my First ever award for my Honesty :) Thank you so much Mesina @ And then there was me.. a great Gal with a kind heart. Check out her blog!

I am so honored to have gotten this award, and I would love to pass it on to a few friends. (When you snag your award, be sure to pass it on to 7 friends and add 10 honest facts about yourself!)

1) Rena..One of my best best friends who has dealt with a lot of fertility and weight issues. She has been my 'go to' gal for a long time!

2) Crystal..She is not only my Sister in law, but I consider her one of my true friends. She is always an honest girl with great talent. Check out both her personal site, and her Photography site.

3) Amanda..I LOVE this blog! Amanda is honest and open. Show her some love!

4 Paige..An honest blog I really enjoy reading!

5) The Top Secret Dieter..I don't know her name, but she is on the same path I am. Her blog is full of thoughts and feelings I have had myself. You go girl!

6) Crystal/My so called life..This is one amazing Lady and Mommy! Check out her page. Her honesty about parenting and being a wife is so awesome.

7) Karen... Another blog I LOVE to read! Karen has a few blogs, and this one is by far my favorite. She's another Healthy Journey Mama. Check her out!

All right, now on to 10 honest things about me..

1- I hate Worms. They freak me out.
2- I paint my toenails so much they turn yellow.
3- I have a staring problem (LOL)
4- If I don't shower, I wont even leave the house.
5- I have been in love with my husband for 6 years.
6- I love to write letters.
7- I am awesome at floating on my back. I could float in the water for hours.
8- I hate the smell of Sour Cream and onion potato chips.
9- My dogs get treated more like humans than dogs.
10- I love chocolate covered Raisins.

Sunday Citar- Who's your Foundation?

2009-11-08T13:17:00.000-08:00

"To put it bluntly, I seem to havea a whole superstructure with no foundation. But I'm working on the foundation." Marilyn Monroe

So many people are going through life not knowing what their Foundation is.
My Foundation is God. I have never been so happy in my entire life. Do you know what your foundation is?

Diet= New clothes= SHOPPING!

2009-11-07T10:53:00.000-08:00

I cannot wait to have lost enough weight to buy new clothes. Right now, I feel selfconcious about the way I look in clothes. My fat clothes are becoming too loose, and while it's awesome..I look frumpy. Not that I didn't when they fit because I am usually in a sweatshirt.
Yesterday I examined my body in the mirror for a long time. I still have a road map of stretch marks on my stomach from my recent pregnancy. My skin on my "pooch" area is still loose and hangs. I call it my "Baby Apron" this is appropriate for me since it came from my baby..and it happens to look like an apron. It has gotten much smaller since I have started exercising. My breasts are saggy now because they are heavy with Milk (Yes, I am a breast feeder.) and I have to wear ugly Bras that are usually stretched out at the top because my Son enjoys pulling on it while he nurses.
I don't care what everyone else sees when they look at me. I just want to look at me and feel Beautiful.
I want to go shopping with my Sisters and my Sister in law and actually be able to try on clothes in a normal Store with Normal sizes not exceding size 12.
I firmly believe you can be beautiful at any size, but if you aren't happy with the way you look you wont be as beautiful. I am jealous of girls who are Confident no matter what size.

All that said, it brings me to This!

That my friends, is my summer bathing suit. I plan on being down to at least a size 12 by summer.
I have always loved vintage pin up bathing suits. I am not wearing a Maternity bathing suit for the 3rd year in a row.

12 Days til Weigh in!

TGIS- and No..this has nothing to do with diets

2009-11-07T10:32:00.000-08:00

Yes, Thank God it's Saturday! I have been looking forward to today all week. Mainly because we are house sitting my Husband's Aunt's house while she is getting her pale rear sunburnt in Jamaica.
Right now we are living with my Parents (which I GREATLY) appreciate until we sign the lease for our townhouse in January. However, We (my Husband, myself and our 9 month old) share a bedroom with my 18 year old sister, and my younger sister has to walk through our room to get to hers.
8 people sharing one shower is no fun. I can't complain, I live there for Free.
I was really excited for today because we could sit around and do absolutely nothing all day.
I asked my Husband to bathe the dogs. Only thing I have asked him to do since we got here.
He procrastinates. Me being the type to get things done NOW goes ahead and does it myself.
Samson, our big dog smelled terrible when I got him wet and I started Gagging. I just ate lunch (low Fat Nachos..very good) and could feel my stomach churning. I drop the shower head (Yay for detachable ones) and heave over the toilet. Samson jumps out of the tub and squeezed behind me knocking me into the toilet. One hand goes in, the other knocks over the defuser Matt's Aunt had on the back of the toilet. At this point I am gagging even more because the sickening smell of Pine fills the tiny bathroom.
I put Samson back in the tub. I wash him all while Delilah (our Dachsie) jumps and barks underneath me as I am stooped over. I get him done and close the curtain. Waiting for him to shake himself off. He doesn't. And after 5 minutes it's a fight to keep him in the tub.
He escapes and shakes all over. I am now drenched and trying hard not to mutter obscenities under my breath. I let him out of the bathroom, hoping my husband closed the bedroom door so he doesn't use the bed we are sleeping in as a towel. I wash Princess Delilah and as I am drying her I hear Samson romping around in the room next to the bathroom. The bedroom. I walk in to sheets in and blankets all over all while Samson is happily rolling around in the bed. He looks at me almost like "Hi Mom" and continues to roll around.
Now, I have sheets to clean..and a wet house to dry.
~~AHHHH!~~
So much for my uneventful, peaceful day.

Where does your food come from?

2009-11-05T07:44:00.000-08:00

Last night my Brother in Law rented a movie called, "Food, Inc"
Since I started my journey to Health, I have really been doing some research on where our food comes from.
After 10 minutes of watching that Documentary, I was really grossed out. I never realized what companies did to Animals to make them fat enough to be slaughtered.

Chickens for instance are kept in dark, cramped coops where they are fed feed that is filled with antibiotics to make them get fatter faster.
It takes a free range chicken 90 days to get fat enough to slaughter. Even then, they are half the size of what you buy in the store.
At a Chicken farm growing chickens for the major companies, it takes a month. Nearly half the time God intended it to be. They grow so fast their organs aren't able to keep up. They can barely move, taking only a few steps before sitting back down.
All the animals are mistreated. Cows and Pigs don't escape this.

I am seriously considering becoming Vegan. I love chicken, beef and pork. If I could farm and bring up my own meats, then I would and not feel guilty about what I am eating.
I want to make an educated decision. If you are Vegan, please feel free to leave links and/or advice for books and other resources.
This was not started as a Debate. Everyone is entitled to make their own choices and if you want to eat Meat, that's your choice. I understand Animal farming is a Good source of income for many people.
I am just wanting information on other options.

9 Months old

2009-11-04T08:22:00.000-08:00

Today, my baby boy is 9 months old! Some days I still can't believe we finally had a baby.
Here is a photo of my sweet boy :)

Every day I Thank God for giving us our miracle baby. Years of being told I wasn't ever going to have a baby made me a bitter person. Once I had completely given up on getting pregnant it happened without me even knowing it. Now I have a beautiful healthy baby! Isn't he cute? He is going to be a year old soon, and it's so hard to believe.

Hump Day Humor

2009-11-04T06:21:00.000-08:00

All Mom's can appreciate. I don't have to yell at my kid yet, but I will some day. This made me giggle.

Enjoy!

Today, I feel GRRREAT!

2009-11-03T07:48:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning and did 45 minutes of cardio. Got my blood pumping and then did some resistance training. My entire body is on fire! My Muscles feel better, especially my heart. You know, that feeling of it being used for good instead of getting up and down off the couch to grab a soda and another bag of potato chips (hey, they were fun size!) watching another mind numbing day of television. There is something about exercise that makes me feel sexy. It's definitely a confidence booster. I have always been confident in who I am as a person, but now I feel more confident in the way I look. It's only been a couple of weeks and I can see a change in myself. No, I don't think you have to be thin to be beautiful..but you definitely have to have confidence in the way you look.

So what did I do for cardio you ask? I know you're thinking it was probably Jillian but it wasn't. Not today. I gave her and her cute little friends a break today and tried....

That's right, The Gazelle!
I think Tony Little saying "You can do it!" half a dozen times during a midnight infomercial and pint of ice cream really got me thinking I could. It was given to us, so I tried it out. It takes a few minutes to get to the heart pumping-sweatiness I enjoy from say an Elliptical, or even our dear friend Jillian Michaels. But, it was a nice break in the routine.

Kick butt Monday

2009-11-02T07:40:00.000-08:00

This weekend was hard for me. I slipped, Fell off the wagon, and ate more than I should. I am paying for it today. My stomach hurts and I have terrible heartburn lol
I feel a little guilty, but not whole lot. I have been really good the last couple of weeks, and I didn't have soda either. I wanted to, but never did.
So yay for me!
Next week I am going to start blogging my way through the Cook yourself Thin cookbook! I am going to share recipes with you, and review them. It'll be fun! I love to eat, and why not make stuff that's good for my entire family? So be on the look out for that.
So today I am going to work out extra hard. Hope Jillian is ready for me.

Check out Shape.com for some 60-second Cardio moves! I love Shape.com because they have great work out tips, and healthy living articles. So check it out, join their free Virtual trainer program.

Sunday Citar- Beauty

2009-11-01T07:42:00.000-08:00

"What can I say about beauty? Beauty is a warm hug, a gentle kiss, a kind heart,

and a Woman with integrity and Grace."

-Anonymous

MMM Free Candy!

2009-10-31T07:51:00.000-07:00

I hope everyone has a FUN and Safe night!

It's Jude's first Halloween. My Mother-in-law bought him this cute outfit back in August. Doesn't he look adorable?

He's so cute with his Baby Cleavage!

Preach it, Preacher!

2009-10-30T12:12:00.000-07:00

So I have noticed I haven't really posted much about my feelings or what has been going on.
Every Day has been a struggle to continue on with my Diet. In the past I have lost a few pounds and then just went back to my same old habits. I then gained all my weight back. I want this time to be different. I am not just dieting, I am changing my lifestyle.
Have you ever people watched in the mall? Healthy, fit people walk by you and you look down at yourself and realize you are unhappy with the way you look. You want to be able to fit in the cute skinny jeans and the cute top that snugly fits your body. It's hard being Fat. I think people are so quick to judge over weight people. Yes, it is our fault for being so fat. But at the same time some people have never been taught how to eat properly.
Is this a "Blame your Mom because you're not a size 2" post? No, Not at all. But I think Educating oneself about Health is important, and if you weren't taught teach yourself.
People are Busy. It's easier to give your kids McDonald's drive thru after a long day at work than cook a meal after you've already spent 8-10 hours a day working your butt off.
I am guilty of taking the easy route. I have a love affair with food. As I am "Re-Educating" myself I have learned some valuable tips.

Precook your meals and freeze them. That way you can come home on days you are super tired all you have to do is just pop them in the oven.
Always make your lunch at home. Get all your snacks together ahead of time.
Try to stay away from pre-made, boxed foods. The fresher, the healthier!

I can't say this is easy. Eating better and telling my Body at 7pm when the Big Mac commercial is on that I don't want it, the more I crave it.
I have had a few sweets since the start of my diet. Last night, I ate a piece of Pumpkin pie (Yes, with whipped cream!) and I didn't feel guilty. Should I cheat every day? No, and I wont.
I can tell you one thing though, my clothes are fitting me better and my underwear are getting too big. They slide off my hips as I walk. Good sign right, right?

Save the Ta-Tas!

2009-10-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

As October is quickly ending so is Breast Cancer Awareness month. Just because October is over doesn't mean you can slack on feeling yourself up.
It's important to check yourself once a month for any changes. Don't know how? Here's a chart!

It's important for your Health!

19 Days until Weigh in!

Let them eat Pie!

2009-10-30T06:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Friday everyone. The Holiday's are coming up, and I don't know about my other dieting friends, but I am dreading it! I love the Holiday's and all the yummy things to eat. Good for me, Bad for my diet. So I have been doing a little "research" and found a Low calorie pumpkin pie recipe. I am thinking I will make it ASAP just to try it and post a review.
If you decide to try the recipe before I do, let us all know how it goes!

Low-Calorie Pumpkin Pie

1 (16 oz.) can solid pack pumpkin

1 (13 oz.) can evaporated skim milk
1 egg
2 egg whites
1/3 c. biscuit mix (Bisquick type)
2 tbsp. sugar
8 packets sugar sub. (sweet & low)
2 tsp. pumpkin pie spice (or all spice)
2 tsp. vanilla

Directions

Heat oven to 350 degrees. Lightly spray 9 inch pie pan with vegetable spray. Place all ingredients in blender or mix with electric mixer. Pour into pie tin or pan. Bake in oven (350 degrees) for 45 minutes or until knife placed in middle of pie returns clean. Can cut pie into 8 pieces.

Nutritional Facts

1 serving - 1 starch bread exchange, 1/2 medium fat or meat exchange, 114 calories. 18 grams carbohydrates. 6 grams protein. 2 grams fat. 173 mg sodium.

Hump Day Humor

2009-10-28T06:34:00.000-07:00

Tee hee! Enjoy :)

21 days til weigh in!

Giveaway Tuesday!

2009-10-27T12:24:00.000-07:00

Well, it's not *My* giveaway, but you'd like a free Blog makeover right? I know I would!
Check out

And Enter for your chance to win!

Taco Tuesday

2009-10-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

It's Tuesday! YAY! Yesterday was an unusual day for me. My Hubby got a Job and was at orientation so it was just me and the little one all on our own. We missed Daddy a lot, but we spent some quality Mommy and baby time.
I have said this before, my son is my inspiration for becoming a healthy Eater.
I want him to grow up healthy. I told my Husband I want to teach him to cook. I think it's a wonderful trait in a Man, and he can woo his future wife through her tummy into marrying him. He'll be a great catch.
I have lost 1 pound!
Yes, I stepped on the scale the other day because curiousity got the better of me. I just wanted to take a peak. I jumped off quickly before anyone caught me. I want to be surprised on weigh in Day.

Today, I did like 40 crunches and my abs are feeling the burn. I am also starting Jillian Michael's "30 Day Shred" work out video. She's a butt kicker. She will only let you quit for 5 seconds. I pretend she is really in the room with me, that way I take it seriously. I would love to buy a Gym membership but right now our Finances wont allow it. So, I have to do the next best thing and sweat it out with videos. I don't mind. No one can see my chubby belly bounce when I run lol :)

Tonight is Taco Tuesday at my In-laws. I will be good and eat a salad :) However, I might have just 1 taco.

Freedom Sunday

2009-10-25T17:57:00.000-07:00

Today is my break day. The day where I eat a few M&M's feeling guilt free.
I was good until I got my Matt's Grandparents house. He had *dramatic Pause* Halloween candy. DUNDUNDUN! I did pretty good. I had a couple of M&M's and gave the rest to my Mother in law.
I search out ways to find inspiration. Youtube has more to offer than just "Man licking Cat" or "Fat kid dancing for Cake" they also offer Video-Blogs, or Vlogs for you savvy in the know people.
I saw this girl on TV about a week ago and she inspired me to get going on a healthy life. Most of her video's are long, so I found the shortest one to kind of showcase what she's all about. If you, like I was, are inspired by her check out youtube.com and find her profile fatty2slim

24 days til weigh in!

Let's talk about Food, Baby!

2009-10-24T08:03:00.000-07:00

The Internet has great resources. I haven't gotten a low calorie cook book yet, so I have been looking online for recipes. This one is for Chili. I love Chili! Especially as it's getting colder outside, warm soups sound so good!
Here is a Weight Watchers Chili Recipe. Try it!

Weight Watchers one pot Chili

10 ounces extra-lean ground turkey breast
1 medium onion, diced
2 (28-oz) cans diced tomatoes
2 medium zucchini, diced
2 medium yellow squash diced
1 (15 oz) can black beans
2 (15-oz) cans fat-free, reduced-sodium
beef broth
4 celery stalks, diced
2 green bell peppers, diced
1 (1 1/4-oz) package dry chili seasonings.

Directions
Spray a large nonstick skillet with nonstick spray and set over medium-high heat. Add the turkey and onion and saute' until browned, about 10 minutes.

Transfer the browned turkey and onion mixture to a large soup pot and add the tomatoes, zucchini, squash, beans, broth, celery, bell peppers, and chili seasoning. Bring to a simmer over medium heat. Continue to simmer until the vegetables are tender, about 20 minutes
Serves 20.

Nutritional Info

Servings Per Recipe: 20

Amount Per Serving
Calories: 66.8
Total Fat: 1.3 g
Cholesterol: 0.0 mg
Sodium: 29.4 mg
Total Carbs: 8.1 g
Dietary Fiber: 2.9 g
Protein: 5.1 g

Exercise Allergy

2009-10-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

Oh come on, we all have a little Exercise Allergy. Unless you are obsessed with going to the gym, you sometime's wake up and don't want to take a step on a treadmill.
I hate exercise for the first week or 2. Week one you have no stamina, no energy, and moving long enough to get your 30 minutes of cardio leaves you with ocean pits and a pulled groin muscle. The first time I went to the gym it was so embarrassing. My Friend Rena, who was the best work out partner in the world, forced me to go. I needed a little push to get there. I didn't want to give up my afternoon on the couch inbetween work and school. We get there and we are surrounded by good looking fit people. They were Military (My Husband is a Navy Veteran, and at the time we went to the gym on base since it was Free) so they were all Physically fit. She hops on to an Elliptical and goes to town. I mean, this girl could move! We were about the same size, but she had been working out for awhile. I hopped on to a Treadmill and put the setting to 6. I had never exercised a day in my life. I struggled to keep up and could feel my feet dragging with each step. I made sure no one was looking and turned it down.
Week 2 is the best. Once the muscle soreness and embarrassment wears off, you feel more Alive. After 30 minutes of cardio your Heart, body and mind just feel better.
I said all that to say this, If you're not feeling comfortable with going to a gym..Rent or buy a work out video.
Whether you are "Sweatin to the oldies" with Richard Simmons

Or Kicking butt doing the "30 day Shred" with Jillian Michaels

Any Movement will get your heart pumping! So do your body a favor, take an Exercise Allergy pill and get moving!

Body, oh the embarrassment!

2009-10-23T20:27:00.000-07:00

TAHDAH! You are about to see probably the most embarrassing photos of me on the face of the planet. Do you feel special? You should. You are one of the few people on earth to see me without my sweatshirt. I hide inside them like a butterfly in a cocoon. So please, don't tell me how unflattering these photos are because believe me I already know. Being asked if I was Pregnant after 8months postpartum was sort of an eye opener for me.

I have been doing pretty good on my diet. I don't eat after 6pm and haven't been drinking soda. Boy does the first few days of not having caffeine shock you body! I have had a headache for days. I shouldn't drink it anyway. I am still breastfeeding. I know, I know..Bad Mommy.

Here are my photos taken today. I am too embarrassed to show the world my body in a bathing suit.
As you can see I still look pregnant from the side, and from the front you can see how my lower stomach sags from carrying my son. I only gained 34lbs during my pregnancy, but when you're over weight already that stretch doesn't "Snap" back like someone who was in shape.
My advice to anyone who is trying to get pregnant and is over weight, drop a few pounds and tone your tummy! I am not saying this to be rude, it's just advice I never followed and regret it now.

Posting these is extremely hard for me. I look at myself and honestly, I hate what I see.
This isn't what I always hoped I would look like. I have always had a terrible Body image. Even when I was thin I was never thin enough. But, I am working on that. And with encouragement from everyone I am working on it.
I am going to get a digital scale and then I can start taking photos of it during this journey!

Hungry Girl on Rachael Ray

2009-10-22T12:05:00.000-07:00

Healthy food doesn't have to taste Bad, does it?
After seeing some of the Yummy Recipes that were on today's Rachael Ray show, I am going to go get this Recipe book.
Check out Rachael Ray's Website with an article featuring Lisa Lillian and enter to win a Free Copy of her cook book Hungry Girl's "200 under 200: 200 Recipes under 200 calories"
I couldn't believe how easy and fun it can be to make Healthy food your entire family will enjoy.
I really want to raise our Son to be a healthy, active child and adult. I want to start him off early eating healthy and enjoying having fun with his family.
I think kids should have some sugar, and fun. Matt (my Husband) and I have eaten whatever we wanted when we wanted to this includes fast food and ice cream. We are both over weight. I was raised by a Southern cook. Mom made everything from Scratch. Most of our meals growing up were home cooked because my Mom was a Stay at home Mom and my Dad was the Bread winner. I had a meat and potatoes diet. Almost everything was fried. I did love being outside and my sisters and I were very active. 2 of the 3 of us were over weight growing up. Not sure exactly how that happened but we Drank Kool-Aid a lot and Mom always made desserts. Sugar was my enemy as a kid. Today it's Breads, Pasta and Chips. Carbs. They love me, but my thighs don't love them.

Anyway, I promised Body shots today but I babysat my Nephew and with 2 babies under the age of 1 in one house was a little nuts today. Tomorrow! :)

27 Days to weigh in!

Hump Day humor

2009-10-21T16:02:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, full body shot of myself. Then I will post a picture of my "skinny" jeans that I have had for years (Since I was skinny) and my jeans now. We will "Dare to compare"

I want to say Thank you to all of your for your encouraging words! I hope someone out there who is struggling with their weight and diet stumbles upon this blog and finds some encouragement as well.
We can do this together.

Dear Ice cream bar

2009-10-20T18:44:00.000-07:00

Tonight after Dinner you were whispering to me from the Freezer. I watched as you grabbed hold of others. I watched as you teased them with your chocolate shell and your cold creamy goodness as they opened their mouths and bit into you. I heard you talking to me. But I refused you tonight. My first Victory! I have great satisfaction in the fact I said No to you and your other sugary counterparts.
You are good. But you are no good for my stomach, hips and thighs. You make me look fat in all my clothes and I hide behind my baggy shirts.
Good bye, my love, good bye.

Day 2: Movies and Family

2009-10-20T06:39:00.000-07:00

Today we are going to go see "Where the wild things are" it was one of my favorite books when I was a kid and I am very excited to see it. Movies for us usually included a #6 Combo which is 2 large Soda's and a Large Popcorn (Add 2lbs of butter and a cup of salt, Please!) and I never see a movie without Milk Duds. Those chocolate caramel sins are one of my favorite things to eat.
But today I am sneaking in my water since it costs your first born child and some change for a bottle of water these days. Who would have thought we would pay so much for something nature gives for free?
I am also taking some rice cakes and veggies. I love Rice cakes. I know a lot of people don't because they are so bland. I just pretend they are potato chips haha.
Tonight we are going to my Husband's Grandparent's house for dinner like we do every Tuesday night. He has a wonderful family who has welcomed me since day 1 and made me feel like part of the Family. However, Grandpa cooks comfort foods..and it's always stuff I love! Eating right on Tuesday's is going to be harder than any other day of the week. I am determined to stick with Water to drink and only eat small portions of whatever he makes. I have to give a little, or I will never stick with this.

Has anyone seen the show, "Cook yourself thin" on Lifetime? I have seen a few episodes and Oh my Gosh! The food looks amazing! If you check out Lifetime's website, and click on "Cook yourself thin" they have recipes and whole episodes of the show. It's foods you love, only healthier. Check it out. I am buying the cookbook today.

29 days until weigh in!

Temptation Island

2009-10-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

Oh bag of potato chips, how I long for you. You are perched on top of the Fridge just calling my name. I hear you, but I am trying to ignore you.
Why does it always seem day one of a diet is the hardest? I swear it's only been 3 hours and I'm already thinking about the salty starch filled goodness in that stinkin' bag.
Recently, I gave my life to Christ and have started reading my bible. God can help us even through life's toughest challenges, and yes also in Weight loss.
This scripture I read today, and am going to put it on pieces of paper in places snack foods are.

"I can do all things through him who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13

Day one: The Beginning and Goals

2009-10-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

Today is the beginning of a Healthier lifestyle for me. I have been fat long enough. I am not offended by the word "fat" and I hope you, my bloggy friends, are not either. I am going to start this off being honest with myself.
I am 5'4" and 206 lbs. My BMI (Body Mass index) is 35.4 which is considered Obese.
Obese. That word hangs over my head like a black halo. I know it's true and have been trying to deny it all my life.
I am a size 18, and my measurements are Chest: 48 Waist: 54 Hips: 49
Now, Let me start by saying I am not going to use weight loss pills or go on any fad diets. I am going to start making healthy food choices, and eating smaller portions. I am going to stay within 1500 calories daily, and eat 6 small meals a day. I am going to do 30-45 minutes of cardio, and 30 minutes of weight training ever day except Sunday.
I am not drinking Soda. I love Dr. Pepper. It's my drug of choice and I drink about a liter of soda or sugary drinks a day. I really don't have a sweet tooth. I love starchy, carb filled salty food. I love french fries! And
potato products are truly my arch Enemy.

I know I may not ever be 100lbs, but I want to be within a healthy weight range for my body which would be 130 to 150. It's only about 60 lbs. I would like to be down to my Big goal weight by May of 2010.
I am a believer in little goals. I am wanting to lose 10lbs by the end this month.

This picture of myself makes me sad. I am the one on the left with the double chin. :)
I recently had a baby, and everyone including my wonderful husband allows that to be my excuse. While I do have extra belly flab because of my son, I have lost all of my baby weight. I am back down to my pre-pregnancy weight and ready for a change.

Weigh in will be in 1 month from today!!!

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